there is so much LOVE on my last Instagram post, I'm tearing up. I replied to EVERY one of you because I felt so inspired and was so ecstatic that so many of you offered to let me in on a little piece of your mind, and such important pieces too. i wish you simply happiness, however you wish to achieve it, and overall peace. doing this was very healthy for you & me, because announcing of your aspirations every once in a while triggers something that may inspire a lot of people. // so a lot of people wanted to know what my plans are, so here I go : we all share the common desire, and that is to be happy. but we all have different definitions of happiness and ways of achieving it. throughout my entire life, I have tried to amount to all of the feelings in which I've felt truly happy, and there has only been a few moment in which I genuinely was. But when I think of my permanent state of happiness- it is being a free spirit. I want to travel the world- that's the biggest component of all my desires as a person. traveling is like a figment of my personality and when I have the ability to do that on my own, I really will feel one with the world and that's all I've ever wanted. But, as a starting career, I want to become a forensic scientist. I've ALWAYS been highly intrigued by crime scenarios and lab testing within that. i think over the years that I decided to be one thing but become more aware of myself and what I personally want. but when I start off, I will be living in San Francisco with my best friend @casscarnevale . we've already talked about it, so it's pretty much happening as soon as possible, haha! I've always dreamt of a "Frances Ha" type deal with the best person I found out in the world, and I've definitely found her. there are more details about that story, funny ones, but I'll save that for next time. Cass & I will not only venture around SF, but the world together as well. I can't imagine getting into a relationship, but when I do I want to settle in my ultimate DREAM location: Strasbourg, France. A few of you know about how long I've wanted to move there.
also, you are all very aware of my love for writing, which is something that will hopefully have some success- possibly a publish book of my poetry or something of that sort. when I'm older I feel like I'll have the time and even more passion to create more writing, as I'm finally living out my true dreams. I also want to take up photography, as that's been vital to my life as well. anyways, Strasbourg, France will hopefully be the place I live the rest of my life out. when I was about 13 years old, I fell in love with this boy (many of you know him from my letter to the 1975), and we had decided on living in Strasbourg, France. we had discussed everything you could possibly think of and imagined every element of our house- we even looked at some houses online! this was the first time I realized how much traveling meant to me and at the time, everything seemed to vivid to me and when we talked about it (which was very often) I would feel so happy with myself just with the simple thoughts of it. I'm in love with everything about Strasbourg- the architecture, the scenery, the plants. all of it. although that boy & I made a promise of living together, he may or may not go through with it. But I know that whatever happens to either of us, if I have to live in Strasbourg by myself, I will. I'm unsure about getting married and having a family, but for some reason I feel like the person I'm imagining is the wrong one. i hope that it'll all sort out in my head because I will be starting college soon (one more year of high school, yikes!) and I want my head to be clear and full functioning as I prepare to take on the life that I've always wanted. a life in which I indulge in myself completely.
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