(to want to write.)

Me being such a wide minded person and aspiring writer- I have this certain ability to extract several different thoughts upon hearing certain things. It's not always a good thing when I've got other things to focus on such as school or priorities. I think a lot throughout the day and I have this sort of process randomly occur. When I envision anything deriving from inspiration or my surroundings, my mind starts initiating the focal points and then it branches off into general thoughts and eventually piles of disorientated and deferred items. I often attempt to organize them into a paragraph, which possibly becomes a full writing of mine. I often feel indecisive if everything is out of line & doesn't string together well. I quickly jot down my initial feelings/senses in my moleskin. When I later have time and peace of mind, I sit myself down and those piles becomes sentences as I find myself down in front of a white document and those piles become sentences as I find myself not only disentangling, but also elevating my diction as my mind becomes more unbolted and emotionally intact. I love writing for me because it is time where I can sit with myself and review my mind and what I've come in contact with. It's such a significant part of my entire being and had I not written this- well, it would've just resulted in a bunch of piles.

-n.b.

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