Recently, a close friend of mine and I have gotten into a bigger fight as a result of bringing up the long term one we've been having. I think at this point I've felt cornered with my problems and my upbringing thoughts of her as she was a constant in my life. Previously, I guess you could uphold this as, I saw her as a constant throughout the entire course of my life. I saw her in everything I thought of doing or becoming and I was holding on to the idea of her friendship to keep me moving. But we have grown apart now and I've completely accepted this. The thing that boggles my mind is the fact that she brings it up to me as if it were a golden platter of surprise or the biggest element to an equation I've been meaning to solve. It's over and I've understood this, but has she? I am writing this in behalf of saying goodbye to my ego towards this entire phase of my life, but I will always have unanswered questions and memories that are unable to be suffocated. I can only sit and type a few words to help you understand how I feel about this situation, but even then will I know how to explain it to myself to where I can document it and remember the deep feelings, ever I forget. I am in dire need of some answers, but now I realize that typing this out now will only keep me drowning in my absent and curious mind.
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